Judgement is where I continue to faithfully fail
Updated: Jun 1, 2020
Sometimes I can be self-righteous.
Sometimes I can fail in the grace department.
Sometimes I see another proclaiming the gospel in one step and showing their sin front and center in another step and I can sometimes get a little judgey.
I did that today.
I judged someone harshly with a silent eye roll and self-righteous thought of “They can’t be walking with Jesus, look at that sin.”
I put her sin on a pedestal as worse than my sin simply because hers was open for the eye to see,
well mine is neatly tucked in my heart, hidden away for no one to know about.
Except the Holy Spirit knows,
he sees what’s hidden and he points at my sin every time and with strong conviction.
Judgement is where I continue to faithfully fail in my walk with Jesus.
I recognize and realize it every single time,but my flesh comes and my flesh it tells me my judgment is justified, it tells me if that person were walking with Jesus “the right way” she would not put her sins out there as if they were acceptable actions.
This is when I fail and the enemy is able to steal a little piece of me, he is able to claim a little victory because I am letting my flesh win.
Yes, we should pursue righteousness and fill our lives with the fruit of the spirit.
God clearly guides us through His word…
2 Timothy 2:22 Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness
2 Timothy 3:16 All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness
But my walk to righteousness does not look like hers, my walk does not look like yours, my path to bearing fruit may be long and winding or short and straight.
Yours maybe full of mountainous rocks and treacherous conditions to murk through.
I don’t know.
I DO know NO ONE is “good enough” to EARN righteousness in God’s sight.
Because even though He says to pursue righteousness in Timothy He also tells us
For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God Romans 3:23
Because we all sin, it is impossible to be “right” with God based on what we do or don’t do.
Our lives are full of sins, shortcomings, and failures. Whether visible to everyone or hidden in our heart.
Isaiah 64:6 We are all infected and impure with sin. When we display our righteous deeds, they are nothing but filthy rags. Like autumn leaves, we wither and fall, and our sins sweep us away like the wind.
I had to have a heart check this afternoon and remember God’s gift of grace and His gift of righteousness come with only one price
and my flesh is washed clean with that price
and I have been paid in full and so has she, and so have you,
and so has your spouse, and your neighbors, everyone
and not any one action that you commit in the flesh can rob you of those gifts because you are saved, I am saved, she is saved, only by our faith in Jesus, not by every action we do or don’t do in our sin or in His glory.